28 Apr You Say it’s Your Birthday
Today, April 28th, is my birthday…and as I sit here, reflecting on this past year…it is almost mind-blowing to realize how much has changed for me.
This time, last year, I wasn’t completely comfortable with who I was. I wasn’t happy when I looked in the mirror. Sometimes, I would stare at myself in the mirror, look into my own eyes, and think – who are you?
I didn’t know. I was lost.
Now, don’t get me wrong, I had (and still do have) a beautiful family- a caring husband and healthy children – but something wasn’t right. Everything on the outside looked perfect…but looks can be deceiving…and inside, I was a mess.
Six months ago, when I started this health and fitness journey, I had no idea it would become a mental health journey as well. I had no idea that taking 30 minutes for myself every morning to exercise, before everyone else got up, that eating clean, drinking super food shakes and reading personal development books would lead to this whole new outlook I now have on life.
I’m going to be real and open and honest because, really, what’s the point of writing any of this if I’m not?
I used to be the girl who looked in the mirror and thought she was fat. I looked in the mirror and thought I was less than. There were a lot of “un” words running through my mind when I got dressed and put my makeup on in the morning. “Unconfident, unattractive, unmotivated, unloveable, unworthy, unfit, unable….un -….un-….un-….fill in the blanks with anything else you can think of.
I’m not being dramatic. I promise. This is how it WAS.
NOW – I am “full of” – full of joy…full of peace…full of confidence…full of appreciation…full of all the wonderful things that life has to offer…full of superfoods 🙂 and sometimes even…full of hot air 🙂
For my birthday today, someone posted this picture on my timeline:
I messaged her, told her it was perfect, and she said – “I thought of you when I saw it.”
I can’t even explain the amount of joy that fills my heart when I get messages like this because not only do I see myself this way now, but others do too. And not only do they see me this way (which is nice of course) but more importantly, I am helping them change…change their body, their life, their lifestyle, their family and their mindset.
I am changing lives.
But first, I had to change mine.
And now that I have…the view when I look in the mirror…is totally different then it ever has been before.