29 Jan THIS IS REAL
The other day someone told me, “You seem to have it all together! You’re working part time, dealing with military spouse stuff, getting into shape, eating healthy, training for a 15K race, writing a blog, active on the Moms Club board and are raising 2 kids. How do you do it?”
WOW! What a wonderful thing to hear! And yes, when put like that, I kind of sound awesome, like Super-Woman awesome…
However, while I appreciate this compliment more than I can say, it’s far from the truth! It was everything I could do not to throw my head back and laugh out loud.
Here’s the truth – I (embarrassing as it is to admit) still have my Christmas tree up. Today is January 29th just to clarify. And, even more embarrassing to admit…and I’m not sure if I even want to do this or not…is we still have our orange twinkle lights up for Halloween. I know, I know! It’s utterly ridiculous right?
I have piles of papers on my desk and sometimes the clean laundry sits in the hallway in a basket for days (I think 7 is the record). And when my daughter can’t find anymore clean underwear, I direct her to dig through the above-mentioned laundry basket to find some. And as I watch her do this, I think to myself, she is going to think this is “normal” and she is going to grow up and tell her daughter to dig through the laundry basket to find clean underwear instead of in a drawer where most people keep their clean unmentionables. *Big Sigh*
Here’s some more of the truth – Most of the time, when friends come over, I send them a text that says: Just FYI, my house is a mess. I haven’t had a chance to clean it.
In fact, I did that today which I told my husband about. He said, “Didn’t you text her that last time she came over?”
Yeah, thanks honey. Thanks a lot.
Here’s another truth – No matter how much I try (and I really do try) to be organized in the morning so I can get everyone dressed and out the door, it rarely comes to fruition! It’s very rare that I actually get into the car (after strapping my kids in the back of course) and drive off without having to first go back inside (usually a good two times) to get something I forgot.
Here’s the final truth – All of this stuff (plus a lot of other unmentioned stuff, of course) makes me, ME. And I like ME! I don’t have any excuses for all of these quirky flaws and I really don’t have any explanation for them either. That’s just how it is, I guess. That’s who I am.
But, I also know that I am so much more! I am strong. I am brave. I am determined. I am capable of achieving whatever I set my mind to. I have worked HARD on myself, mentally and physically and I am still working on myself every single day. It’s a journey, not a destination.
I can honestly say I am proud of the person I am today, of all that I have accomplished and all that I continue to do on a daily basis.
Now don’t get me wrong, it took me a LONG time to get here, to finally be comfortable with who and what I am.
I am flawed. But in those flaws is perfection…because I know, that every day, I am the BEST version of myself that I can be.
Are you struggling to love yourself, to accept yourself for who and what you are? Do you find you are constantly putting yourself down and listening to that inner critic (as Andrea Owen calls it)?
Here are some worksheets to help build up your self-esteem and self-confidence!
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